Some of you may have noticed that some time in late 2008/early 2009 I stopped drawing all together. My activity on FurAffinity was limited to favs, comments, and journals. I used to blame it on the fact that my tablet broke, but even when I got it replaced, I didn’t draw.

It’s hard to explain or even describe my thought process and actions associated when it comes to drawing. Even if I want to draw something, have ideas, and have the time, I somehow resist. Almost as if my hand is forced to engage into another activity. So I’ll be ready and willing to draw and have a good 5 hours of free time but would instead sit at my computer and hop from site to site repetitively until I have run out of time.

Last summer, I noticed similar behavior when I was at work. I would hold out till the very last minute to get things done. I was able to meet my deadlines, but in that time I procrastinated, I could have done things on the side to advance my career since there were certification courses sponsored by the company I worked for. Unfortunately, I didn’t take advantage of those opportunities and now I don’t have an edge on other people in my field.

Today I planned my day around having an uninterrupted 10 hours I could dedicate to drawing. It’s Saturday after all, why not take advantage of the day, while I’ve been in the habit of waking up early in the morning fully rested. Well, that never happened. I woke up, made breakfast and spent my entire day going from Facebook, Twitter, /v/, Furaffinity, and Tumblr. It was a completely wasted day.

If this only happened once in a while, that wouldn’t be a big deal. The problem is that this has been going on for months. The only exception was a period of 2 weeks last January where I drew daily. I even told myself on the last day that if I didn’t keep drawing, I’d stop for another 3 years. It’s been 36 days, and I still haven’t picked it back up. And this is all during a time where I really need to take on commissions.

Does this happen to any of you? Where you just can’t get your shit together and draw, but instead waste time in the least productive manner ever? Do you have a similar problem? How do you deal with it?